Swimsuit Shopping...Ick

I've got fun news! I'm going on a vacation! I haven't been on a vacay since our Branson trip last Fall! I'd say I'm due for an outing :)

Here's what we're doing: We are going on a cruise (my first one, by the way) to the Bahamas! We're taking the Majesty of the Seas with Royal Caribbean Cruise Lines on a 4 night adventure! Here is a picture of the ship:

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Well, I hope that's the picture. I just googled it, and that's what popped up :) I leave Sunday night for Orlando and then we board the ship on Monday. It'll be me, Jamie's mom-Kim, his sister-Camie and brother-Kirby. "What? No dad or Jamie?", you ask?! Well. Jamie and Marty both have to make the big bucks for their families and stay at home to work. *insert sad face* I actually have a sick little part in my stomach thinking about it. My husband (and Jamie's daddy too) works so very hard. Jamie is one of the most loyal, honest, hard working, dependable workers I've ever met! The company he works for is lucky to have him, because they'll never be let down with Jamie :) So, I'm sad that he'll be working while I'm out gallivanting around via cruise line!

Don't get your panties in a twist quite yet! I know it doesn't seem fair, but Jamie did get to go on a snowboarding trip with his brother this past winter and he's going to Chicago with his brother in August. So. I think it's my turn to get outa Memphis and have some fun! Donchathink?! Me too.

Let's move on to my horrid morning.

So, since this trip is rather last minute (It was booked earlier this week), I have been on the workout mania schedule! I've been a beast at the gym and walking outside! But guess what? No such luck, homeboy! No changes in this bod of mine and swimsuit shopping still sucked! Big time! I went today for the first time in ages! We're talkin', I didn't even buy a new swimsuit for my stinkin' honeymoon! That's how much I hate it! Oh it was awful! I even tried on a one piece, you guys. And I almost bought it! What 24-year-old do you know who hasn't had babies yet buy a one piece? Well. I almost did. And I would have tried my best to rock it (without my perfectly fit in-laws making fun of me)...you know I love you guys, but you're all model-bodied-people!

I went with this suit. It was the only one that didn't make me cry. And rip my hair out. And curse my name. And run away screaming. It's from Dillards and I actually like it:

The skirt on the bottoms covers a little of my lumpiness and dimples. I like it :) Thank you, Kenneth Cole, for designing such a suit!

Yesterday, I ventured on over to Target to look at suits there. ZERO luck there! That place was a wreck! I did, however, find a cute sundress that will be going with me on the cruise. I also had a gift card so this dress cost me nothing! Holla!
Cute and summery and fun. I didn't cry trying on sundresses. Dresses make me happy. Very happy.

Now if only I looked like this lady. The one and only Gisele Bundchen:

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Her bod is rockin'! I bet she could sneeze and add an extra ab to that washboard of her's! Oh if only I was 5'10 at 102 pounds....

Enough dreaming.

I'm 5'4 and 104 pounds.

BA! Lies. Still kidding! My weight will never be disclosed here on A Deeper Life! Never, I tell ya! NEVER!

All joking aside, I am happy with the body the good Lord gave me. He has blessed me in so many ways and a healthy body is one of them. Everyone knows that I've battled with my self-esteem my whole life. It's been the one thing that I've really tried fighting for as long as I can remember. It's a constant battle with the devil that I am going to wake up and not only convince myself, but to truly believe that I am a beautiful creation from God.

Psalm 139:14 says that I am "...fearfully and wonderfully made...your works are wonderful..."

I know that the Lord created me in His perfect image. He made Abby just how he wants Abby to look. For those readers out there who might get offended if I make a joke about myself or my body or my weight or whatever...please know that that is my way of making light of the situation. My demon is self-esteem, and I have worked on it my whole life. Joking and talking about it helps to fight it. I work out daily and try to eat well. I take care of my body in many ways, but I have continued to fight the enemy and his lies, telling me that I am not pretty or skinny enough. So, please do not get offended if I make a joke about myself :)

All this to say...I'm stoked about my vacation! Really stoked! You're gonna miss me though. No blog updates for about 5 days. What are you going to do without me?! Probably carry on with your everyday lives as if nothing's changed. Yeah. I don't blame you.

I'll be sure to take a ton of pictures and update you when I return! But until then, I'm going to the post office, showering, getting my piggies painted, and wrapping my stomach and butt in plastic to go run 12 miles!

Yeah. Right.

Bye, friends! Happy Friday! Love and hugs to you all!